Be Grateful.

Earlier today, I've encountered this very precious human-being. As I was walking to the computer lab in Cheek Hall on campus, contemplating how beautiful this day is and absorbing the-soon-to-disappear warmth since we are in November, my eyes stumbled upon a mid-aged blind man. His stick was leading his way and in that stick he believed.  He let that stick lead his path and trusted its power to do so with all that he got.
I kept following him around to make sure he was okay, because I could see him going back and fourth in doubt, as if that stick of trust had lost its credibility. I approached him from behind and introduced myself: Hi Sir, I'm Hala, may I help you in reaching your desired spot? he immediately welcomed me and started asking me where I was from and what my major was. He was going to the computer lab too, he wanted to fix his computer as he was having troubles completing the software updating process. I led him through the way, holding his arm and talking about Nigeria, his homeland. He had this special aura and energy around him that instantly devolved to me. He was also grateful for this beautiful day as he was smiling all the time whenever a warm breeze brushed by his face. If only, I could give him my eyes to see how this day looks like, maybe he would appreciate my eyes more than me. I walked him through to the computer service front desk, he politely nodded his head and thanked me then wished me a good day as I did too. I'm sad that I didn't get his name but he will always have a special place in my memory, a bright place filled with inspiration and gratitude.
We might not be able to appreciate all the blesses we have until we stumble upon random life reminders.  I just want you to be grateful today and everyday, always remind yourself  of the beautiful things and people in your life. Appreciate this life that you were given and make the best out of it. Smile and spread love as long as you're healthy, breathing, and alive.

Christmas

It already feels so Christmas-y even though we almost have three months until the long awaited eve. I cannot be more excited for it this year, I've always liked Christmas and it's actually one of my favorite holidays. Warmth and bells all around, chocolate and cozy gazes. Christmas is one of the things that I've missed the most after moving to Saudi, I used to celebrate it in my head and just wonder what my classmates were doing and whose chocolate was more delicious, not very creamy and sugary like all holidays' chocolates are. We didn't have Facebook back then so I lost touch with most of them, it made me sad for a while but I've gotten over it and tried to adapt to the new surroundings, which I couldn't.
This year is different, this year I get to experience this precious holiday with (became-precious-in-no-time) person. It still baffles me how I developed emotions for this human before getting to know him well, I can say that I know him enough now, I know when he's happy and I know when he's in deep thoughts, I know when he's too excited like a 10 year old and when he's too wise like a 100. His mysteriousness is what I'm looking forward to share, to reveal those tiny details and listen to those bedtime stories and share those moments when humans feel real the most, when humans are totally honest, and when they are trusting the fragility of a weirdly shared moment.
I want to experience how it is like to spend noon with him (my least favorite time of the day) and how it is different to be around him late at night (my most favorite time of the day). I just want to look longer into his eyes, and I mean it this time, look very long and just gaze for hours, because I know how it feels like to be deprived.

Christmas, please tell Santa I need this wish, only this one.

Love.

I've always wondered what love was, sometimes the love I feel for a tree or a cloud is bigger than the love I have for some people whom I've known for many years. Everyone one needs love, including myself, and I'm saying that because I've always thought of myself as someone who might give love but doesn't feel the need to receive some in return, and guess what? I was wrong.
Sometimes in our timed and limited lives on this turning earth, we meet exceptional people who give our world a different taste and bring out the best of us.
I don't know what I like the most about this person, do I like myself when I'm surrounded by his halo and voice? or do I like his self when he's with me or do I like his self when he's alone contemplating? I absolutely have no idea, all I know is that he's an irreplaceable part of my world and this has happened in literally no time. For everyone out there that is wondering about the proper "timing" to fall in love or to start building emotions and feelings towards someone, I would like to tell you that time is a myth and magic exists. I haven't experienced this before so take it from me, when you know, you just know.

I hope all of you find your missing halves when it's time for it and always remember, there's nothing wrong with being on your own until this happens, You need to know yourself very well before getting involved and magic will eventually occur.

Love you anonymous readers.

The concept of home

Growing up as an outlander has made me realize many important things, such as: home is not where your passport indicates, it's where you heart belongs and feels happy the most. Home is people and some places, certain rhyme or a soft breeze. Home is bigger than what they claim and deeper than what they see. Don't feel lost or left out if you couldn't build  belonging feelings for one place, because your home is this earth and it's not as limited as you think it has to be.

Where to go with this mind.

I'm crying my heart out because I'm craving your existence, the reflection of your unique soul can't leave my mind, nor it can leave the walls of my aching heart. I'm a hungry selfish creature who wants it all, who knows that your love will keep me away from my deeper loves, from my future memories that are waiting for me in some mysterious places, and that's the reason of the conflict that will forever last inside of me.
Another love worshiper or a life adventurer? maybe both, but feelings will be dominant and life will be left out.
I just don't know...