It already feels so Christmas-y even though we almost have three months until the long awaited eve. I cannot be more excited for it this year, I've always liked Christmas and it's actually one of my favorite holidays. Warmth and bells all around, chocolate and cozy gazes. Christmas is one of the things that I've missed the most after moving to Saudi, I used to celebrate it in my head and just wonder what my classmates were doing and whose chocolate was more delicious, not very creamy and sugary like all holidays' chocolates are. We didn't have Facebook back then so I lost touch with most of them, it made me sad for a while but I've gotten over it and tried to adapt to the new surroundings, which I couldn't.
This year is different, this year I get to experience this precious holiday with (became-precious-in-no-time) person. It still baffles me how I developed emotions for this human before getting to know him well, I can say that I know him enough now, I know when he's happy and I know when he's in deep thoughts, I know when he's too excited like a 10 year old and when he's too wise like a 100. His mysteriousness is what I'm looking forward to share, to reveal those tiny details and listen to those bedtime stories and share those moments when humans feel real the most, when humans are totally honest, and when they are trusting the fragility of a weirdly shared moment.
I want to experience how it is like to spend noon with him (my least favorite time of the day) and how it is different to be around him late at night (my most favorite time of the day). I just want to look longer into his eyes, and I mean it this time, look very long and just gaze for hours, because I know how it feels like to be deprived.
Christmas, please tell Santa I need this wish, only this one.
